Saturday, May 31, 2014

POST EIGHT, still on May 31st 2014, and having time to read the LinkedIn articles and positives. I'm going to share some relevant information to me:

  • "A proverb here; "Illiterate persons of twenty-first century will not be those who are unable to read or write, but those who are unable to learn, unlearn and relearn". So change is necessary."
  • There are top 5 signs you are a 'Game Changer'. Two of them are REALLY me.
Sign #1: You are an expert in your field
Second king of Israel wrote in 10 century BC: “Do you see a man skilled in his work? He will stand before kings; He will not stand before obscure men.” Game changes have tendencies to be highly immersed in the area of their expertise. They are not only continuous students of their occupation field, but also teachers (sharers of information) and great partners to his/her peer group.
Examples:
When was the last time someone asked for your expert advice or asked to create something that was viewed important and critical? Do leaders in your organization share information with you and ask for your opinion? Are you a ‘wanted person’ in your community? Is what you know easily learned searching Google?
Sign #5: You teach and build into others
Admiral Grace Hopper, once said:” The most important thing I've accomplished is training young people. They come to me, you know, and say, "Do you think we can do this?" I say, "Try it." And I back 'em up. They need that. I keep track of them as they get older and I stir 'em up at intervals so they don't forget to take chances.”
Game changers care about people, their progress; they teach, support and build into others. They don’t do it for money, or recognition, but simple because they love people. After all, true game changers know that everything they have they received, so they simply pay forward. Down deep inside game changers know they were meant to serve people.
Challenge yourself:
Is there anyone in your life that could use your help today? Do you believe that people need help regardless of their circumstances?
  • I noticed that quite a few of my ex-coworkers have not changed their LinkedIn profiles to reflect that they're no longer working at Goodwill. Hey, if you're going to be on LinkedIn, update it!
You know, I'm lucky. I mean it was surprising, but it wasn't a total tragedy, and I didn't lose my employment in a way that stripped me of my self-esteem and my sense of safety and surety in the world. I won't spend too much time stuck in a cycle of anger and regret about the whole experience.
I believe that I am talented and accomplished, and that I can have a great life and career.

POST 7 It's Been 8 Days Since 'That' Day and I CAN'T BELIEVE It's May 31 2014 !

Good thing I'm a writer. Or 'writeaur' (Fr). Or bashrayber (Yid). 

The amount of PAPERWORK and things you have to read is STAGGERING!!! AND IT ALL CAME TODAY!!!

Unemployment paperwork and requirements! Department of Rehabilitation paperwork! Plus all the paper fit to begin a small forest!
("Hey, lumberjacks! I have a LOT of trees around MY house that you could use for paper!!! C'mon by and cut 'em down!!!")

BTW, I've been checking daily regarding how many people are reading my posts. Whoa, 20 for the first one, considering how LONG that sucker was!!!
I notice at least 3-4 people are keeping up with this blog, and I think I know who they are.
I'll try to make this blog entertaining for my few fans. (My fans may be small in quantity, but you CAN'T BEAT the quality!)

OK, regarding unemployment benefits and my thoughts:
  • Since the "Claim Beginning Date" is the SUNDAY prior of the week I filed the claim, the effective date includes the last week of work. I don't know if that week is considered the 'waiting week', must find out.  If you're going to go to school (like I am, part-time), it behooves one to take mostly online or hybrid classes, because NOTHING can interfere with your availability to work. So night classes, weekend classes, and especially online classes are the way to go. Or maybe really REALLY early classes.
  • REGARDING BENEFITS: I've been reading the information, and I realized that since they issue an EDD DEBIT card for my benefits, they are able to track my expenditures!!! So one must NOT use the debit card for travel or the Improv or superfluous things. It must be used for food, gas, perhaps online living payments of electricity, gas company, things that won't get one into trouble if they (and they will!) review my debit card charges!!! You can BET that certain items WILL be red-flagged, like the Improv, a hotel in Flagstaff during the week when theoretically I SHOULD be looking and available for work!!! And then if I put that all that week I was available for work, I've just committed FRAUD. 
    • Another thought regarding the debit card charges: if used for gas, I shouldn't charge it for long-travel gas unless I am traveling for a job interview. It would be obvious that I need to note the day before, after or of I pay for gas is the day I list that I looked for work!!!
    • I need to make a budget list of our expenditures and what CAN be paid with the debit card.
    • The benefit amounts are automatically added to the one debit card issued via Bank of America.
    • STOP THE PRESSES, THE ABOVE INFORMATION IS NOT NECESSARILY PERTINENT TO MY SITUATION:
      • I can set up a Direct Deposit from this card to my regular bank account.
  • I must make 'all reasonable efforts to find work while claiming benefits'. I need to find out the parameters-all day everyday? Once a day? 
  • I'd really like to find work, I need my mind and talents occupied but I had such specialized talents that I'll need retraining in certain things. That's why I want to go back to school for certain things, like to be brought up to speed in accounting, computer information systems, updated MSOffice apps, paralegal, plus to get my certificate or AA. It'll be part time of course and take awhile, but I've got TIME to do it. Another thought about finding work is that I was used to a certain amount per hour and finding that will be kind of tough. I probably need to bring down my standards. THAT'S a self-esteem kick in the head, for sure.
  • I'm hardly the 'professional' type aka appearance, so I guess I have to either a) get some new duds for work searching, or b) lose weight to fit into what I have currently. 
I'm currently changing my LinkedIn profile to reflect my being 'unemployed'. I've searched the 'net (of course!) and found that the term 'unemployed' is such a NEGATIVE TERM, as well as 'work at home'. Since I'm usually such an upbeat, positive person, I found a new way of describing my sitch.
Scammers, believe it or not, will target those words and send TONS of 'get rich quick' schemes!!! So you are going to LOVE my current LinkedIn 'currently working at' and job description! I've copied it here for you, and will translate these high-falutin' terms as I go along!!

Currently I am employed as being committed to finding employment utilizing my Info Mgmt-Research-Emergency Solutions
  • Legal, governmental and medical knowledge and analysis utilizing research with an emphasis on documentation required and regulatory compliance substantiation - I'm trying to fill out the EDD and DOR paperwork, determine exactly what I need to put on those forms, plus figure out what next to do about school;
  • Monthly budget reconciliations on current periods/P&L, YTD and budget variances on a cash basis vs accrual - I'm figuring out what expenses we gotta cut out and what expenses we can use the EDD debit card on i.e. food (NO ALCOHOL!), gas, medical, dental, medication and vision copayments, utilities including Internet,  land line and cell phone expenses, basic items like health, car maintenance, etc. RE: the P&L, I'm screwed if there's an L!!!.;  
  • Utilizing financial software to forecast current and end-of-year budget variances - I'm using one of my TurboTax features to do a future scenario based on creating a new tax return and doing a 'what if', using actual and projected income and expenses;
  • Using positive budget information to establish position cash reserves - If we have anything left over, sock it away into a savings account; 
  • Utilizing and consolidating information technology hard-and-software for maximum benefit - going to clean the computer room, move the computer, maybe get a wireless printer with feeder capabilities and get rid of a TON of papers! 
  • Inventorying of current assets and determining current market value vs. basis by utilizing online pertinent information, and determining disposal of said assets with the intent of maximizing cash flow - get ready for a garage sale.
  • Utilizing legitimate business travel for current profession and future employment, based on IRS Publications 529 'Miscellaneous Deductions' and IRS Publication 463, 'Travel, Entertainment, Gift and Car Expenses' - I'm figuring out what I can take off my taxes next year, and additionally showing 'good faith' regarding business travel for the EDD.
Here's my LinkedIn profile:
You know something else? I now have the time to read the excellent articles on LinkedIn!!!
Some of them are AWESOME and truly make me think!!!


Thursday, May 29, 2014

POST SIX 5-29-14 and 5-30-2014 Days Three and Four of My Unemployment from Goodwill.

5-29-14

Y'know, I really JUMPED on some of this stuff! Must still have the adrenalin rush going on and in shock.
Meeting with one of the 403(b) reps today at Benjie's.
.Have to contact the other 403(b) company to t/f $.
Did paperwork, our Mutual of America rep Walter D'Souza is AWESOME!!!
  • Bub and I had a Harbor Freight attack!!! We LOVE that place!!!

Just be-bopping around town, getting stuff notarized, downloading transcripts from college when I went in the Middle Ages, sending away for college transcripts from the Dark Ages, maybe they'll come by Pony Express. Or chariot. Or mastodon.







Now this is kinda funny:
I'd always seen classes in the Brea newsletter and the good ones I'd see were in the mornings!
We went to the pharmacy, I picked up another Brea 'what's going on' newsletter, and the GOOD NEWS IS
I can now take those morning classes!!
BUT...
The INTERESTING NEWS IS
that they're at the Brea Senior Center.

Huh.

This evening, I downloaded a lot of school stuff, i.e. orientation, assessments, forms, I can't beLIEVE how much paperwork and forms there are now! I'm going to start with a few online courses just to get my feet wet. They're actually hybrids, you have to meet the first day and then meet sporadically thereafter, but mostly it's online. Which is good.
Hope the transcripts from the monks come quick.

5-30-2014

Lots of medical stuff for Bub i.e. Dr. appt for WC.

I got a phone call from the DOR and my counselor is someone who I was in occasional contact with when I was at Goodwill!!! Small world!! So she knew I knew what was needed, I told her my situations, it was a nice chat!!!

When Bub and I were waiting for the Dr., we were looking at ABQ homes and switching phones so we could both look at them. We saved a few and Jax wanted to see some. I wanted to compare them with what we have and what I really want to do at this house.

I wrote a couple of lists and included projects I want to do to our house.

If we ever moved there, I'd like:
Pueblo revival/pueblo contemporary/southwestern contemporary
I have a list of 'must haves' or 'don't want'...
1. Master bath has to have a nicer bathtub, you know one of those neat ones like you like BUT also has to have a small shelf around it, and a separate glass-enclosed shower (that glass-enclosed shower is what I want to put in our black and white bathroom)
2. A front of a house that looks relatively cool
3. (Jax and Steve taught me this) I HAVE to have a front window for a Christmas tree and the front window is NOT a bedroom!!!
4. The backyard has to be nicer for our grandson Stevie to play
5. Relatively close to Jax, Steve and Stevie.
6. Lots of light and windows (I really like Jax and Steve's house because of all the light and upper windows and that skylight in the bathroom!)
7. Not TOO much greenery, backyard only, just enough grass for da little sweetie to play on, but Barry wouldn't mind gravel 'cause you CAN'T MOW IT!!!
8. No cul-de-sacs, not enough parking there.
9. No HOA, or I want to see the HOA contract before I buy to make sure I can do what I want to i.e. put a pool in, put a pergola in the front (one of those neat small patio covers that would go over the entrance)
10. No 'deep' long entrance way, they tend to be 'dark'.
11. No way the neighbors behind or to the side can look into the back yard, UNLESS we make the fence bigger or plant some cypress trees or something to block the view.
12. POOL (if there isn't one, we'll put one in, TRUST ME!) But we'd have to have a big enough backyard to fence in the pool area. Maybe I'd get a lap pool, about the depth of our jacuzzi, and not quite the size of a regular pool, see pic below. For some reason, VERY few people in ABQ have pools!!!
My secondary list of "ok, I'd make this a 'must have' except I COULD live without it" and "I really don't want it but I'll cave if I have to" is
1. Kiva fireplace (that corner 'beehive' fireplace)
2. 'Bump out' kitchen or front window, like a bumped out window seat
3. I'd like it a little more 'Southwestern contemporary' style.
4. Nichos are nice (little wall indents that hold things)
5. Vigas (those wooden beams on the ceilings)
6. Small enclosed front courtyard with one of those adobe 1/2 walls. We'd probably put a small ornamental patio cover/pergola in front.
7.Master bedroom opens to back yard, OR if upstairs, opens to a balcony. Has enough room for a couple of dressers PLUS a couple of chairs and a small table.
8. A lot of gravel, in fact, almost all gravel
In fact, here at our house I'd like to remove the front tree and put a pergola/patio cover in front. (see pic below the lap pool)


I'm tired, I'm gonna go have a root beer float.

MORE to come!!!

PS-to get to sleep every night, I'm reading the 50th Anniversary edition of "The Great Crash of 1929" by John Kenneth Galbraith.
It's really interesting, believe it or not!


POST FIVE, DAY TWO OF OFFICIAL UNEMPLOYMENT May 28 2014

Am starting to wake up at a quasi-normal hour-between 6:05 and 7:41 am. SCARY.

AGAIN, after waking up, Bub made me a cuppa java and I went WRITE (get it? get it?) to the laptop in the dining room to WRITE.
Get used to this blond overbite typist clipart, folksies. Sometimes, though, it MAY be different, so heads' up! Like today's.

Went online to check out doctor and prescrip stuff with Bub's insurance, and glory be, say hallelujah, gimme an AMEN!! Almost ALL our providers and meds are also the same!
So I'll start transferring stuff over and alerting our providers about the change of primary insurance.

I turned Barry on to Cake Wrecks (www.cakewrecks.com) for a laugh. I found the website when I was checking out cakes for Jax's wedding to get an idea about how much they'd cost, and found it in my favorites. I started looking at it again and laughed at the new cakes that I hadn't seen. Barry want to know what was so funny? So I told Him to sit at the laptop and check out the website.
LAUGH!? Boy, did Barry laugh his butt off! He was on it for about an hour.

I realize that now I won't be too tired to LAUGH or do things with Bub! Coming home after work, the adrenalin from work would be all used up on the 57 freeway, so I'd drag myself into the house and veg. Not now! We can do more stuff together when we feel like it, not when I come home and Barry has to wait until a day I come home and feel like going to Costco or wherever.

Stopped by WalMart this afternoon to have McDonald's and get a few things, just a few, really reining in on the money, honey, and while I was there I found out that another one of my ex-coworkers is REALLY now an ex-coworker. Apparently they were forced out. Emails go around to notify everyone of someone's departure if it's a) voluntary or b) involuntary if the person is high enough on the management food chain. Involuntary separation in any case is always right then that suddenly someone's not there, whereinthehell did they go? and the party of the first part aka person shown the door and shooed off the premises isn't allowed to go around and say goodbye to anyone. Technically, someone whose position is now wearing a toe tag, has circled the drain, no longer running in the rat race, had a substantive negative outcome, , bought a pine condo, deader than a Monty Python parrot, belly up, gone to the big donation center in the sky, 'Do Not Pass Go, Do Not Collect $200', deleted from the Shared Drive, the fat lady has sung, 'Dr. Faustus, I presume?',  permanently out of print as a Career Opportunity, "Its parchment processes are a matter of interest only to historians!", left the building, Hotel California, OK you get the idea, that someone is now considered a visitor to the company and not allowed to wander the halls unescorted.* What, I guess the powers that be think that someone'll go around for bids for sympathy?
Hell, yes!!

So that makes (including me) 5 laid off/let go/position eliminated/reduction in force/forced out from my old ETES department and 1 quit from another department since last Friday May 23rd until today May 28th.

Dammit, a lot of GOOD GREAT people are leaving!

Some of us were going to meet on Friday at a local place, but that was put off until next week. I guess. I think that the more we put stuff off, the less likely we'll get together.

*Thank you, Monty Python, for those mahvelous ideas!

I was talking to a girlfriend and we were joking about how, when we woke up for work, and we woke up a little late, we'd have to decide, 'hair or makeup'? Makeup won hands down with her, but hair won with me. We decided that if we worked at the same place sometime, we'd get a limo and have time to work on both things!

OMG, I  just realized that I'll have to do all my throning at home now!!! (Google it)











This bottom part is only good if you're into government regulations and stuff like that.

According to the South Coast Air Quality Management District (SCAQMD), a lot of companies go through this.

EXAMPLE:

The AQMD Ridership Transportation Survey Registration Packet.

Per the South Coast Air Quality Management District (and they take THEIR marching orders from the Feds/EPA!!), every year a company with 250+ employees at any one site has to have what's called an Employer Transportation Coordinator and they have to do what's called a Ridership Transportation Survey of all the people working at the whole site and submit a registration packet with all the survey information that the employees did. There has to be at least a 60% return of employee surveys to be valid, and a 90% rate of surveys returned allows the company to get some extra 'points', let's say.

There is a timeline:
1.      3-3 1/2 months before the due date of the AQMD Ridership Survey registration packet to the AQMD:
Figure out a survey week (which would be scheduled usually AT LEAST 2 months before the registration survey packet is due, BUT survey weeks cannot be any weeks that have holidays in them)
2.     3 months prior to the due date: Get a list of the people at the survey site: Alert management that this is coming up (but don't give them the week of the survey, that could skew the survey): Contact the electronic survey database administrator to get paperwork going.
3.     2 1/2 months prior to the due date: Get survey packets ready to go to management:
Send out the surveys to management the Friday before the survey week: Set a due date for all employee surveys to be entered or turned in to you, usually at the 1 month mark before the due date of the registration packet.
4.     1-2 months prior to the due date: Get surveys back from employees or the employees enter them into a database online: Either way, DAILY track who has submitted surveys so the ETC can bug management about employees who haven't returned them. The ETC checks off who has returned them so that the ETC can determine if the company return rate is 60% or 90%, which is REALLY HARD, considering that 90% of 518 is 467!!! The ETC has to HARP on management to get those surveys IN! Plus if a lot of employees do the hard copies, and so when the ETC gets them, the ETC enters them onto the online electronic database and has to put his/her regular duties off to enter the survey information, or put in OT. If 467 employees do the survey and 30% of them are hard copies, the ETC has to enter 140 of them! That takes TIME.
5.     Hopefully around 1 month prior to registration packet due date: When the 60% or 90% return rate is reached or the survey return due date is reached, the ETC notifies the online electronic database administrator that the surveys are ready to be number crunched:
6.     2-3 weeks prior to the registration due date: The numbers are crunched, the information comes to the ETC electronically and in hard copy form:
7.     1-2 weeks before the due date: The ETC fills out 4 additional pages for the packet, completes the packet, signs it and gets it signed by the highest ranking official aka CEO, gets a check for the fees and sends it in by the due date.

TIMELINE EXAMPLE:
Say a company's AQMD Registration Packet is due June 15th  (and the due date NEVER changes):
February 1st-10th, figure out a survey week. The survey week can be no more than 5-6 months before the registration packet due date.
March 10-get a list and number of employees at the site. There are 518.
March 12-contact outside electronic survey database administrator consulting firm.  Let them know how many people appx, the survey week dates, etc. Get surveys from them and print out for department management whose employees don't have computer/online access. Put into department packets. Prepare email for management.
March 15-Let management know that this is coming up. They can discuss at their meetings.
March 30: Finish up making hard copy packets for management.
April 4th-send out hard copy surveys to management and email management with online electronic survey link for their employees.If hard copy interoffice mail takes a day to get to an office, send them on the Thursday before.
April 7-10th Survey week. NO SURVEYS should be turned in until Friday afternoon April 10th!
April 13th-May 16th-THE HARD STUFF BEGINS   Collecting hard copies that are sent in, checking online surveys, comparing to master list of employees, getting on management's tail for their people who haven't turned in surveys. Make sure all hard copies are entered.
Friday May 16th-notify electronic data administrator ready to crunch numbers.
Monday May 19 -communications between electronic database administrator and ETC to winnow out issues, correcting final numbers and error messages. MOST OF THE HARD STUFF IS BASICALLY DONE NOW! All that's left is the calc'ing and the collating of the registration packet.
Wednesday May 21-the electronic brain starts calc'ing the surveys and their information.
Tuesday-Wednesday May 27th-28th-the ETC gets the finished information and begins to collate the AQMD Ridership Transportation Survey Registration Packet with information from the finished calculations and the blank pages in the packet.
Monday-Thursday June 2-5 Complete packet is done, ETC signs it, send to CEO or highest ranking official at the site on that day (if CEO on vacation), ETC collects the packet, scans it in, photocopies it as well, puts with other documents, sends off certified/return receipt requested to AQMD in Diamond Bar. If packet collating and/or signature process is running slow, ETC may have to hand deliver packet on the actual due date of June 15th.

For this example company, if there is a misunderstanding on the part of management and an Employer Transportation Coordinator tells their bosses that the SURVEYS are done, NOT the whole registration packet, and if no one asks the ETC if the whole Ridership Transportation project was done, then obviously management just assumes it has totally been done. Bad move, especially if they let the ETC go before it's totally done.
IF the ETC is let go from a position just before the AQMD registration packet is due (the registration packet has the survey information and other documents), like, say, around timeline number 7., and it's assumed it was all done, and since the poor ETC has no knowledge that they're going to lose their position, then there is NO MALFEASANCE OR REVENGE INVOLVED by the ETC regarding the packet not being completed,  IN FACT the ex-ETC let their ex-company KNOW about the spot the company was in, well, the Ridership Transportation Survey Registration Packet is in limbo. All the hard work is done, now all that needs to happen is the numbers transferred onto the document pages for the company.
By someone who knows what they're doing.
And is an ETC.

Now someone at that company has to a) compile the report, b) fill out 4-5 pages of registration documents, c) order a check for the fees, HERE'S THE KICKER d) has to be an ETC in order to sign it (an Employer Transportation Coordinator has to sign the registration packet as well as the CEO.), e) put the packet and the check together and have it in by the close of the business day the day the packet is due, say the middle of June.
A company HAS to have an ETC at the time of filing the registration to, I say again, SIGN the registration packet, and since theoretically with this company example, the ETC's position was eliminated, the company whose example I'm using doesn't have a current ETC.

So now the example company is in a bind.

They can't ask for an extension, an extension has to be 2 weeks prior to the due date.
They can hire an outside consultant who is an ETC to finish the registration packet.
They can have another employee go to the ETC class, BUT the next class is the day after the registration packet is due.
They can shine it on until the other employee goes to class and then can finish it, but there will be a 50% penalty tacked on to the packet and its' normal fees. So if the example company has 518 employees at that site, and the regular fees are $1002.32 (from the AQMD filing fee schedule), then penalty would be $501.16 for a total of 1503.48. Plus $163+ to train another employee to be an ETC, since, I say AGAIN, a company HAS to have an ETC to sign the registration packet!!! and a company HAS to have an ETC within 8 weeks of losing one!

Here's another kicker: If the AQMD KNOWS that the example company has lost their ETC, the company would do well not to 'forge' the ETC name and signature.
Small kicker-the CEO is listed in the AQMD's database, along with the ETC. So the AQMD knows who is supposed to sign the registration packet.
HUGE KICKER-the CEO is the responsible person for the whole registration packet. It's all on that person in that position. The ETC is just the tool to coordinate it, so if the packet is wrong, doesn't go in, or the company doesn't call the AQMD and lay themselves at their mercy, the AQMD goes STRAIGHT for the CEO.





Information for violations:

http://www.arb.ca.gov/DRDB/SC/CURHTML/R112.HTM

SOUTH COAST AIR QUALITY MANAGEMENT DISTRICT

RULE 112 - DEFINITION OF MINOR VIOLATION AND GUIDELINES FOR ISSUANCE OF NOTICE TO COMPLY
MINOR VIOLATION:
  1. The failure of any person to comply with state requirements, District rules or regulations, requirements of any District plan or permit, or requests for information or records by the District, which meets all of the following criteria:
    1. Does not result in exceedance of de minimis levels of emissions as specified in the District’s Protocols for Issuance of Notices of Violation and Notices to Comply which is published and updated periodically by the Executive Officer;
    2. Does not endanger the health, safety, or welfare of any person or persons;
    3. Does not endanger the environment;
    4. Does not preclude or hinder the District’s ability to determine compliance with applicable state or federal requirements, District rules or regulations, requirements of any District plan or permit, or requests for information or records; and
    5. Except as provided in subparagraph (3)(A)(i) above, does not result in a failure to comply with any emission standard in the applicable District rule or regulation, District plan or permit, including requirements for control equipment, emissions rates, concentration limits, product material limitations, or other rule provisions directly associated with emissions.






  • Notwithstanding subparagraph (c)(3)(A) above, no violation of an applicable state or federal requirement, District rule or regulation, requirement of any District plan or permit, or requests for information or records, shall be considered a minor violation if:
    1. The violation is knowing, willful, intentional or grossly negligent; or
    2. The violation enables the violator to benefit economically from noncompliance, either by realizing reduced costs or by gaining a competitive advantage; or
    3. The violation is chronic; or
    4. The violation is committed by a recalcitrant violator; or
    5. The violation results in a public nuisance pursuant to District Rule 402.
  • Tuesday, May 27, 2014

    POST 4 MAY 27 2014 My First 'Official' Day of Unemployment from Goodwill of OC

    Today started out kinda ho-hum, but later on in the early evening, things started happening.

    Knee-jerk thoughts in the morning:


    -It was nice to sleep in without guilt or being sick or it being a weekend.

    -Does or is anyone missing me today at Goodwill?
          +Are there people who didn't find out and who have, now? What are their thoughts? Positive, negative, incredulous, fearful?
    -Is it really, REALLY quiet on the 2nd floor of the Main Office?
    -I have umpteen bazillion emails here at home regarding school and stuff that I have to go through, but I have to buy a couple of ink cartridges 'cause the printer won't print without them. <sigh> Another list for a WalMart run.
    -Do I REALLY want a 'farewell' luncheon, or should I shine it on? Probably shine it on.


    An aside-you KNOW you're a writer when you get up and all you can think of is getting to the computer or laptop and writing, when you make something to eat or drink and you put it next to the PC or the laptop, when you sometimes feel guilty about writing vs. going to the store, doing housework, etc, then you know.

    I've known it for a long long time, but now I HAVE the time.

    I gotta WRITE!
    This pic to the right that I put together from two cliparts and one auto-shape with text in it is my fave!
    I just spoke with my 403(b) retirement account broker regarding my account. Bub and I set up a meeting for Thursday at a very fave deli in Santa Ana!
    I love meeting with him, 'cause he usually buys!!!


    The tax ramifications of doing things with that account are quasi-complicated when you are or are not a certain age and you have certain things going on inside the account.
    Must look into this.

    Ok, I looked into it.
    https://www.tri-ad.com/participants/403b_faqs.aspx#term

    I also shot off an email to the org's CFO about this.
    When I was cleaning out stuff last Friday the 23rd and looking around for things that were mine, I thought that it was hard to determine things I brought in myself for me to use and things I was using that were the company's, since I had used them for so long.
    This was written 'way
    before I was BORN!
    Some of the more interesting things of mine that I took were:
    1. My old advanced Excel workbook from 2002, and the information is STILL good no matter WHAT version of Office you are running;
    2. My HR personnel files, namely my 10 year old Employee Handbook;
    3. "The Secretary's Handbook-A Manual Of Correct Usage". This 6th Edition (which I assume was updated from the 1st Edition) was written in 1947. The 1st Edition was written in 1929. This book STILL cracks me up.
    4. Plates, utensils, tea, greeting cards, CD's (blank and with music), just a bunch of stuff that had been in my desk for, WOW, a decade now. A decade with Goodwill of OC. I still shake my head and find that it's hard to wrap my mind around, that I was there a decade, and that I no longer am there.
    DAMMIT, I FORGOT MY SPEAKERS!!!
    Later this evening, and speaking of finding it's hard to wrap my head about not being with GW, it's also hard for me to wrap my head around two more ex-coworkers who were let go today from my dept, and another ex-coworker is gone from another department who I'd known since right after I was hired!!! What the HELL is going on???

    It's weird-I WAS going to get some Letters of Recommendation from some ex-coworkers, but now there'll be no one LEFT to give me one!





    Monday, May 26, 2014

    POST THREE It's Been 72 Hours Now - Memorial Day 5-26-14. ADHD, Dreams, Monks, College...

    If I don't stop this 'waking up earlier' thing, I'm going to turn in my keyboard and swap it for Dragonware.
    It was actually pretty nice to be cut loose from work on a long weekend because the realization is delayed and won't hit until Tuesday morning.

    This time I didn't wake up feeling I had to go to work or looking at the clock and having a knee-jerk reaction of Oh, NO! I'm 1 1/2 hours LATE!

    I figured out why I haven't written much over time! Have you ever heard of an ADHD writer who also worked full time? I'd like to meet one!!

    Again, couldn't sleep last night until around 2-3 am again, lots of weird dreams, this one with motorcycle trips, trains to Del Mar, Julian, the Grand Canyon, HUGE shrimp cocktails, silken robes in the 1st class dining area (I won't call it a dining car, it looked like an old time dining 'salon' from the Gay 90's, 1890's that is, with open seating and special garb, like the silk kimonos), the whole works.
    One weird thing I'll mention about the motorcycle trip part of it-Bub and I had to hold up leaving on our bikes until I found my matching leg warmer for my jeans!!! (Never did find it-in my dream, that is.)The weird thing is that I NEVER wore legwarmers while riding...I wore leather chaps with laces. Leather and laces...sounds like a song...

    I feel like I should write down my feelings as I FEEL them, 'cause I'll forget! Just like dreams.

    Did I mention that my dreams were of COURSE in color??
    My legwarmers were aqua blue, some of the train cars were red or Army green, and the margaritas were DEFINITELY yellow.

               An aside here-you know we'd been considering moving to Albuquerque within 3 years or so. That's still goin' on, but I woke up this morning, all I could hear were birds, and that's actually most mornings. Oh sure, on weekdays there are a FEW cars be-bopping up and down (mostly down) the street, and Mondays are Trash Days, and Wednesdays are Street Cleaning Days, but those sounds go by quickly and it's really very quiet here. Will have to definitely think about that.

    Okay, so last night I went through applying for FAFSA and registering for college. If you do your own taxes on TurboTax, you could probably winnow through these systems. If you don't even balance your own checkbook, I suggest you hire someone to do this for you or march right down to the Admissions Office and throw yourself on their mercy. If you really want to go back to school, plan to spend a few days in the Admissions Office.

    If you haven't been back for a few years or decades, the college systems have new stuff you gotta do.
    I want to go back to school, but there are a TON of new rules. If you haven't been back for a few years or decades, the college systems have new stuff you gotta do.
    They have college assessments to see if you have what it takes to take college classes.
    I never bothered with assessments before, I took college English, reading, my first college major was English, blah blah blah, everybody KNOWS I'm a wordsmith. You don't need an assessment if you've taken these types of classes in the past two years OR have taken them in the past. The college doesn't list a time requirement for taking colleges classes in the past AS LONG AS YOU HAVE TRANSCRIPT DOCUMENTATION TO PROVE IT.

     I'm screwed.

    MY documentation from past colleges involves administrative monks writing your course names and grades on papyrus, and Johannes Gutenberg printing you a copy. If they were saved, they were saved as parchment rolls and buried with the School District Superintendent in a pyramid*. In fact, it wouldn't surprise me if my transcripts became a palimpsest for some other student! They jest ain't available, Sparky!
    *NOW I know why there's a pyramid on the campus of CSULB! THAT'S where my transcripts are! Under the basketball court bleachers! Kinda like me when I was back in college. Ah, memories...)

    I gotta rethink this school stuff, but right now I have to get an appointment for an assessment: I have to take a New Student Orientation before the assessment appointment and THAT has to be done before May 30th: I also have to have a Student Education Plan, ALSO before May 30th. In fact, ALL these three things have to be done by then for Priority Registration.
    Shit.
    I could see J.K. Rowling trying to attend a Community College around here and having to go thru this Writing Assessment crap! OK, she probably wouldn't have to do it if she gave the College a full autographed set of the Harry Potter books. Or endowed them with a Chair in Gryffendor. (Where DOES she find all her ideas and names? Was she part of the CIA 'MKUltra' program?)

    I guess I could give this (you should pardon the expression) the ol' college try.
    I still crack myself up.

    Instead of writing all the things I think about, which let me tell YOU it would've been a helluva lot EASIER than making this pic. I think it came out ok.


    Of COURSE, more to come!
    Who am I to deprive my reading public?
    Or actually TORTURE them?

    BTW, NONE of them are toxic.

    I need that 'Dragon Naturally Speaking' software, but actually I realized I could use my iPhone and do notes.

    Writing this is a lot better than cooking for the holiday.


    UPDATE 5-26-14 at 11 pm:
    After a great pickinik* din over at Rhoda's, I
    1. Ordered one set of college transcripts;
    2. Ordered another college set of transcripts;
    3. Set up tasks for tomorrow for priority registration for Fullerton College i.e. calling Admissions for an Assessment date, getting an appt for a Student Educational Plan, emailing the webmaster or admissions and finding out whyinthehell I can't access the Student Orientation;
    4. Talked to a ex-coworker bud, and most importantly
    5. TURNED OFF THE ALARM CLOCK. I say again, I TURNED OFF THE ALARM CLOCK.
    *I'm channeling Yogi Bear.

    Sunday, May 25, 2014

    POST 2 (B) More on Sunday May 25 2014-"Hey Lynne! You've Joined The Ranks of the Unemployed! What Are You Going To Do Now!!!???"

    At $129 for the SoCal resident 2 park 2 day hopper,
    I AIN'T goin' to DISNEYLAND.
    (Actually, $129 for 2 days 2 parks is pretty good considering the regular gate price is $175, but it ends Saturday May 30 2014 and it's not necessarily the initial cost, but the upkeep once INSIDE. Like food, drink, more food, blah blah blah.
    "Hakuna Matata" my ass!
    *Ahem*
    Ok, where was I...
    Oh yeah, discoursing on being cast into an interesting position.
    How do I feel about being back in the job market, after a very unexpected layoff, Reduction In Force, position eliminated, etc?
    I'm doing some research on the patio on my tablet, drinking an Arizona iced tea, jotting down notes on my research, while Barry's on the patio reading and listening to the Angels win over the Royals 4-3. Life is a bitch, man.
    I was busy with my Mr. Spock mindset, researching things to do and not do upon leaving a job, boomers and unemployment, had written appx 3 1/2 pages of notes, when I realized that all this research, observations and thoughts aren't pure research, but I'M actually the reason and subject of
    my research! When you realize that, it can become a bit tiring because you're not only digesting information, but it's the PERSONAL factor, digesting all sorts of information to poop out later for mySELF. I'm gonna need a laxative to flush out all this shit. (Get it? Get it? A 'laxative to flush out this shit'? One of my positive traits is that anything I do, I always would 'go with the flow'. Boy, I 'crack' myself up sometimes! )

    So how do I feel?
    Grief.
    Grief because my coworkers were my FAMILY there at Goodwill, all of them including the clients and disadvantaged folks we had. No matter how much we promise to keep in touch, there will only be a few. It's logical, when you don't have anything in common with the bulk of your ex-coworkers (they're there, and you're NOT), then the urge to talk becomes less and less.
    Logic. Logically figure out things I need to do (after those issues of food, medical, shelter and well-being are taken care of).
    Bouncing back and forth, up and down (mostly up) with self-esteem feelings. I'd occasionally question my value in the workplace and think, would I ever work again? I think, who would hire a fat boomer grandmother? Careerpivot.com says that on average it takes a Boomer 9-12 months of job searching to find a job! A niggling little voice inside my head thinks, was it my age? I mean, I started there a month shy of 50. I  have to stay mentally mostly positive to combat those little negative suspicions of age discrimination, both past and future, and focus on emphasizing my skills, both hard and soft. So my answer to the question above, 'Would I ever work again?'. HELL, YES! ABSOLUTELY I'll work again! Whether it's volunteering, or working P/T for a fledgling business who needs some help, I'll still be VERY active, and will

    REINVENT TO STAY RELEVANT.  
    
    I'm very proactive and good about recreating myself to fit not only my OWN needs, but those of others. I HAVE and WILL stay mentally in the groove, I WILL work at something, firing on all 8 cylinders, go, go, GO!!!
    Daydreaming. I idly wonder, what is it that I'd like to do? There are so many times in my life that I've asked that question, and for some reason ended up doing just what I wanted to do and translated that into work skills.

    Here comes another list of things I gotta do:
    1. Get a professional email address.  Schmink45 at godknowswhatipaddress just doesn't seem very professional, unless you sell professional clown makeup. (Schmink is the German/Dutch name for professional makeup)
    2. Get my resume together. I DO have something to SAY about THAT!!!
                a. For the last 3 weeks, my coworkers and I had to put together a calendar of sorts, listing the tasks and responsibilities we were supposed to do. This came down at an 'informational'' meeting given by our VP of Human Services, that there was restructuring going on. I felt that there was something behind it all because I had seen it at least twice. I felt we were being asked to justify our jobs.
    During the restructuring meeting, she asked three questions: 1. What was good about Goodwill that you wouldn't change? 2. What about Goodwill would you want to change? (this was the most important question to me-more about that in a minute) and 3. How would you change it?
    I of course opened my big mouth and said 'too much corporate and not enough Mission' for #2. THAT, I think, got me targeted.
    The rest of the meeting, I just SHUT DOWN, la-la-la, mentally putting my fingers in my ears.

    My point is that since I listed so many things I did for about 3 weeks, I have a great idea about my current fresh soft and hard skills.

        3.  Change my LinkedIn status! & make it more professional.
        4.  Find companies that need help, like the newer companies who want to fly, but also follow GRANTS. Now grants, as I've seen before at Goodwill, usually have a finite shelf life, so people hired to work FOR that grant ALSO have a finite shelf life. So why not work at that, either as an independent contractor or a P/T employee?
         5. Inquire of the State of CA any retraining programs they may have.

    Thanks for listening, ta-ta, don't be a stranger, and I'm going to post this all over the place now:


    POST 2 (A) Sunday May 25 2014-Day Two, Or 48 Hours Later. "I Have A Dream" POST TWO (A)

    I actually woke up earlier today! Like 10:30 am vs. 1 pm like yesterday.

    For the past week I hadn't really been able to get to sleep before 2 am, and now it's worse. I DO wake up at a relatively decent hour like 7 or 8 am, but I've been dreaming alot so I float back to sleep.
    Dreaming about work? Yeah, I've been dreaming about that.
    Usually when I dream, that means there are things TOTALLY unresolved within me. No shit, Sherlock.

    This dream last night involved my ex-boss as a school teacher, and I was in class. That day we'd be learning to ride Honda 70's. Another teacher was coming in to teach us this.

    ???

    Hey, I TOLD you it was a dream, and a dream does DEFINITELY include some sort of motorcycle!

    I was rushing around in the classroom trying to make myself useful to everyone. There were tests on the table but I didn't grab one because I knew the material backwards and forwards and could just whip that test out quickly. I remember the motorcycle teacher for the day coming in and asking about the ridership survey program and how he wanted some information sent to him, a couple of school VP's in the school office, and the school officer.

    My bud Cindy from work came in and told me she'd take care of it. I thought, ok, whatever. Didn't occur to me at the time that she was going to do it because I wouldn't be able to, I wouldn't BE there to take care of it.

    The Special Ed teacher came in and asked my ex-boss if he had any 'higher functioning students' who could go into her classroom.
    I didn't know this at the time, but he'd just been given 4 more students for his class, and had to either drown in students or get rid of some. I was one of the 'get rid of some'.
    I heard them, volunteered, and my boss looked at me and told me that I was being cut from not just his class but the school program-the whole school program, in fact.
    I pleaded with him and the Special Ed teacher (her name was Maria), they considered it, then said they'd look at my file and get back to me.
    I walked out with her and told her that I was also a DOR client, so that meant I was 'funded' for her Special Ed class. She seemed a lot more interested then.
    I walked back in to put my name on the signup sheet for that day's class (Honda 70's, right?) and to get the information and the test. I couldn't find the sheet or the tests. It looked like a couple of the guys were using the sign in sheet, so I walked over to them and told them that I PROMISED I wouldn't pop any wheelies with the bike. (It seems weird calling THAT piece of motorized equipment a 'bike' but calling it a roller skate is grossly unfair...to roller skates)
    They kind of ignored me and kept using the sign in sheet.

    So it ended. Have fun picking this apart for meaning. It's obvious to me, what it means.

    I came out of the bedroom to take pills and have a cup of coffee, Bub said, "Want to go out to breakfast at Denny's?" I said sure, let me take my pills and vitamins, then remembered I hadn't called our work Staff Clinician. (see what I mean? 'Our' work? as if I'm STILL associated with it?)
    I came into our computer room and called him, it went to VM so I left a msg.

    For some reason, it was right then I started getting teary-eyed. I hadn't gotten teary-eyed since 8:15 am Friday morning when my boss told me that my position was being eliminated.
    How do I describe it? It's when you really get emotional about the person and people, not the situation. It's an emotional, people-generated type of teary-eyed vs. a situational or self-pitying type of teary-eyed.

    Sometime later I'll write about the different types of crying; this will be from Lynne, speaking ex cathedra from her belly button. Or nose.

    I just now realized that this event, this being 'cut loose, RIF, position eliminated, g'bye Lynne', is very close to when people experience an accident, a death in the family, any type of traumatic experience.
    Wouldn't you say that being oh-so-nicely FIRED, whatever you call it nicely, it's still FIRED, from a position you'd held for 10 years be 'traumatic'? I sure would, now that I've realized it!
    So for people to ask you, ''How are you doing?" is really preemptive and you can't truly answer until some time has passed. I did a knee-jerk reaction and said I was doing fine because at that particular nanosecond, I WAS. I should've told them to get back to me in a week when the adrenalin was gone and harsh reality kicked in. Hmm, must get my EMT book and study this.

    Yeah, you could definitely call this a traumatic event, and the reactions to a traumatic event can range from the adrenalin high, adrenalin going through the system, then being released and you're back to your normal self.

    And THAT is exactly why I started getting teary-eyed at thinking about calling our staff clinician Dr. Michael! Because I'm coming down off the adrenalin rush, realizing what it now actually means, and now I really have to do some research and logically find out what the psychological & physical reactions will be manifested in me, just like any sort of traumatic event.
    • An interjection-Bub has been REALLY supportive of me these past few days, he's always been supportive, but he's been letting me be, letting me take my time to do what I feel I need to do, he's just amazing. Really amazing.

    Shit, I just realized that there's a really good chance I'll have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) from this!!!

    I wonder if there's a support group for People Who Have Left Goodwill?

    More to come, I'm going to get presentable and go to Denny's with Bub.

    Stay 'tooned.

    L

    Saturday, May 24, 2014

    POST ONE-A On Saturday May 24 2014-Thoughts on my Goodwill of Orange County position eliminated by a 'Reduction In Force'.POST ONE 5-24-14, AND add'l comments and an 'epiphany' on 6-2-14

    On Facebook I posted, "Well folks, it was fun, it was great, it was a great job, but I position has been eliminated and I am no longer working for Goodwill. Something about a 'Reduction In Force' (RIF) and restructuring.
    I had wonderful times there, wonderful coworkers, and I'll never forget Goodwill or the fantastic people there."
    Thank you Facebook bud Jan Kain for this and other wonderful thoughts within this blog! (I get a LOT of wonderful thoughts from her!)
    You know, after being in one place more than 10 years, it's hard to wrap your mind around the concept that it's not 'your' office or 'your' department or 'your' coworkers and organization anymore. It's interesting to me that I feel if someone leaves in a bad way, like being fired or quitting because they can't stand it, they'll refer to their past company and people there as 'it' or 'them'. If one leaves in a good way, i.e. like I left, or leaving to seek other things like school or moving, you tend to slip into the mindset still as 'us' or 'we' and that way refer to your association with the company. For example, I texted an ex-coworker, about a contract that came in and that I would text the information to Ramon. I wrote, "Ok, it's on my, oopsie, the top shelf of my, oopsie again, the plastic files.". See what I mean? If I had left in a negative way, I wouldn't've been that way, helpful and all.
    BTW, see below the 'near past' part for an 'epiphany' that I finally realized on 6-2-14.
    So let's hit the future first...


    PLANS!
    I'll paraphrase and add to a Dr. Seuss book title for this part of the blog, "Oh The Places I'll Go, Oh The Things I'll Learn!"
    Facebook bud Johney Harper asked me, "WOW, so what next??". It's a great question JH, I had given it thought occasionally, but now I'm getting down to (what else?) making lists and priorities.
    1. File for unemployment. (Done, online) I hate to be a drain on the government, BUT the reality is that Bub and I gotta eat and have bills to pay.
    2. File to be reinstated with the DOR. (Done, online) Purpose? I'm going to need some serious retraining and skills updating, and since I was a DOR consumer, I'd need help getting back into a mainstream of finding a job.
    3. Keep the flow going, still have a 'work'-type schedule. One of my FB buds has kindly offered part of her office for me to bring my laptop, use the phone, just be in an 'office' atmosphere. This will be VERY very handy, just to keep my mindset for work going, look for employment, etc.
    4. Get letters of recommendation. My sister Tori mentioned that I should write the letters then give them to people to sign. If they have the letter in front of them and it says the truth and all that is legally allowed to say per CA law, then how could they refuse?! and with or in the letters of recommendation have quotes from my past performance reviews. Tori, you're SO smart!!!
    5. Check medical insurance coverages and make sure my providers and medication provider will be continuous. Get all current medical work done before my health insurance runs out.
    6. OF COURSE look up classes and courses I can take! I have be careful about this, because the CA Employment Development Department is pretty strict on being available for full time employment, so my answer to them would be that my classes would be online and not necessarily time scheduled. But school, here I come!!!
          a. What classes? Well, I'd LOVE to finish school and at LEAST get an Associate's Degree! Probably in Business, Administrative Management. That's a title that can mean ANYTHING at all.
          b. I'd like to take some classes that have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with any of my jobs or current likes, just to keep my mind open, and how better to keep one's mind open than to take a class that is part of the curriculum but has little actual interest to me? It'd be a challenge, and I LIKE challenges, BUT anything automotive is OUT.
    7. WRITE. WRITE, WRITE, WRITE! I am a WRITER.
    THE NEAR PAST i.e. leading up to the position being eliminated.
    The actual day Friday May 23, 2014 of being laid off shaped up like this:
    8:00 am  Came in, touched base with Maintenance about a coworker's power chair. Came into my office, asked my manager how he was doing, turned on my computer.
    8:15 am My manager turned to me, and said "Please go with me to HR". I asked why, and he said again, "Please go with me to HR. Please". Of course, the unknown is what makes your heart freeze and your blood grow cold, so I quietly asked him again why. He answered in a VERY low voice, "Reduction in force. Your position's been eliminated". I really appreciated the head's up.
    I automatically went into my Mr. Spock logical mode, wanting the transition from being my manager's right hand, uh, 'man' to being a non-entity in his professional life. He said, 'Lynne, I tried!" and I said I know, it was coming, and it's ok, I'll always be there for him whenever he needs anything or to blow off steam or wants to bounce stuff off. He said let's just walk over to HR as if we were just walking over to HR. I said isn't that what we're going to do? I always grab a pencil and paper, and this time I grabbed extra Kleenex too.
    8:30 am We go into the Senior Director of HR's office, sit down at the round table, and he begins by telling us that this is his job, but this is the hardest thing he's ever had to do since he's been at Goodwill. I can understand this, since I knew him BEFORE he came to Goodwill. He mentioned about the RIF (Reduction In Force), said that there is restructuring going on, and my position is being eliminated and the duties broken up and given to others.
    I said I understood, we went through all the paperwork, it was checked off as a layoff/RIF and so was assured that my claim for unemployment would be uncontested. I was given my final check, information on medical benefits, my retirement, life insurance, etc.
    You know how I know it was hard for him? Now you know usually the perception of HR people is that they aren't people per se, they're without feeling who exist for the good of the organization, and that Human Resources', ISN'T. Are we clear?

    His glasses were fogging up.
    Huh, I wonder if sometimes hangmen in the old days ever felt that way, emo and sorry for those they've been mandated to execute? Or currently in prisons?

    He mentioned about a 'say farewell to Lynne' luncheon or something, and I said, "Oh, is HR paying? Hey, you mentioned it!". They both chuckled at that, and the Senior HR Director said that my manager's dept and HR could split it. I told my manager that when his pcard expenses came time, to call me and I'd show him how to split it out. (NOTE: 6-2-14  It ain't gonna happen. There's no way. And I don't know if I really want it. See my blog post 9 for 6-2-14 for more.) They laughed again. As I mentioned, I was trying to make it easy for all of us by being in my Mr. Spock mind but by pointing out things that were quasi-humorous.
    We talked about my retirement and I mentioned tax-wise about BTW people who are over 59 1/2 and being able to take out the money and not have a penalty, and he said he didn't know that!
    Lots of other stuff came up, paperwork stuff, and then we all talked about my personal things in my office. I said we could get it out within an hour or two, and he said ok, otherwise I'd have to come in afterhours and get it. I said it's ok, what I have would be just a couple of boxes since we had to clean everything out last year for the new carpet.
    I had been making notes on my pad of paper all this time, i.e. 'Call the retirement rep'; 'Find out about medical insurance'; 'Call Joseph Lovretovich' (who is Barry's and my Employment Law lawyer);

    The Senior HR Director took my badge, my manager said he would get my key and I said I'd get my personal items, so officially at appx 9:30 am, I was no longer an employee. Actually as of the beginning of the business day I was no longer an employee, but at least when I came in, my badge worked. (If it didn't work, I would've been suspicious as HELL!!!)
    He hugged me twice, which told me he was genuinely sorry for doing this, he's just under orders, and I understood. I think it was both the hardest and easiest 'let someone go' job he'd ever done.

    9:30 am As soon as we got back to the office I checked my computer and my password had already been deleted. It was ok, I didn't have much on my computer that was mine. I had actually done a lot of cleaning up back in late March and had been watching what I put on that PC since then. I had ALSO done a lot of 'housecleaning' of most of my important personal things and put it into a box under my desk, 'just in case', so a lot of this was already done. This worked out well because since the 'end' came so quickly and without notice, I was able to still look through more things like books and in other places, because when you're let go, I don't care how much you knew it was coming or how 'Mr. Spock-ish' you are, you still have a modicum of numbness. It's a protective coping mechanism for emotions and allows you to at least SOMEWHAT function.

    I started putting stuff together and going to other offices to say goodbye to people. I knew I had to be 'escorted' by someone since otherwise it would look bad for my boss to let me wander around without him knowing.

    First thing I did though was call Barry and tell him, so he could digest it before I got home. He, as everyone else I talked to, thought I was kidding. I won't tell you his thoughts, but they SURE weren't good regarding the org.

    I got some stuff together, then first stopped by IT. They were CRUSHED. I spent some time in there, then went to Marketing and Communications, said goodbye there. Hugged a few people in the hallway from Finance and Sales.
    Got some more of my things together especially my food, went into my department's office and said goodbye to the person in there. I texted the other staff to let them know, since they were on vacation.
    One of our IT help desk administrators came by and was so shocked I was leaving, and I gave him all my food. I loved my IT guys. I wanna be one now.
    I was still in my Mr. Spock mode, but I felt more regretful at how my coworkers would take it. I was a big part of their lives, as they were mine . We spent more time together than we did at our homes, and now a person in the business 'home' was suddenly gone. I could understand how they would feel; not only sad but also scared and mistrustful of the organization, because if this could happen to LYNNE, Lynne who helped everyone, had a 'can do' attitude and never turned anyone down who needed any sort of assistance, that feeling of "Lynne's gone, so how secure is MY job?" would manifest itself. I felt I was doing good, doing things right I thought,  as others did of me.
    10:30 am The Senior Director of HR called my boss and asked him if I was almost done, and my boss said 1/2 hour to an hour max. (hmm, now I'M being a tad paranoia, but after having my nose rubbed in it a few times, I feel I'm justified in thinking that I was on camera and that HR was being informed that I was doing too much 'saying goodbye' and not enough packing.)

    11:00 am  I was done packing, we got a cart and my manager and one of the IT guys walked down with me, and Cindy came up behind us. I took her hand walking towards my car. We put everything into it, I said goodbye, then called Barry and told him I was coming home.
    NOTE: I thought I should go through the employee entrance, but my boss said no, we can go through the front door. I guess they really trusted me, and I didn't break that trust. Not ONE ITEM was Goodwill's. NOT ONE. I made SURE.

    It really felt almost like a funeral, and I guess in part it could be considered like a funeral, the death of a position and the person who was in it now gone. *See my post 5-25-14 POST 1-A for my thoughts on this topic.

    UPDATE-An 'epiphany' on 6-2-2014 about the week M-Th prior to my departure on 5-23-14. My boss, one of the supervisors under him, and the VP of IT KNEW. My boss and that supervisor in fact KNEW since that Monday 5-19-14, I feel.

    I was thinking too much about Bub and kinda being a little 'distracted' and preoccupied, instead of my usual radar being up and noticing a few things about how my boss, one of the supervisors under him and the VP of IT were acting towards me:

    1. When I texted my boss re: going to the Dr. with Barry, he texted me back and asked me to come in to work on the brochure. That is the VERY FIRST TIME HE'S EVER ASKED ME TO COME IN AFTER I HAD A MEDICAL APPT. 
    2. He was also gone a lot on Wednesday and almost ALL DAY Thursday. I think he didn't want to go through seeing me at my desk, knowing what he had to do Friday morning.
    3. His supervisor for whom I do the initial authorization processing for was asking me about the pictures and videos from the health 'first Friday' day. She kept bugging me about it, asking me that if I did complete it at home, could I bring a CD with copies of it over to her house? (she lives not far from me in Brea and we've known each other since she started working there) 
           a) She was ALSO really antsy on Thursday, making sure I could do some of the videos and put them on the shared drive, and finish all the authorizations I had to process on my desk. She kept on coming in every 30 minutes or so to check on what I was doing and my desk. 
    3. The VP of IT came in to my office late that Thursday night when I was there (like appx 6:30 pm) to look out my office window (which looks over the donations dropoff parking lot area to 'check on something in the parking lot'. Now, he NEVER stays that late. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER
    After going home and sorting through my stuff, I talked to a couple of coworkers ('scuse me, EX-coworkers) who clued me in on a few more things:
    • Another ex-coworker was let go about 1/2 hour before me;
    • The 'safety meeting' we were supposed to have was cancelled. I think that no one had the heart to face everyone else and tell them what 'restructuring' had happened.
    That afternoon and over the weekend I realized that you can tell by the sound of people's voices if they want you to keep in contact or not. You really can. If they sound like they're on the computer and just answering you with noncommittal grunts or some other verbal noises, that's a clue.
    If they continue to say that they and you need to keep in touch, go out, etc, then you KNOW they truly want to. BUT, YOU will have to be the one to keep up the contact, because with past coworkers, it's 'out of sight, out of mind'. YOU  have to be proactive in maintaining your relationships. If you want to, of course. And there's always the sneaky underhanded way of maintaining the relationship with a past coworker just to find out more stuff that's going on! Personally, that's a total waste of energy, IMHO.
    Interestingly, I got my final check and before going to lunch with my FB bud Daniece, I went in to put it into the bank and draw some money out of it. Apparently it was a manual check and it hadn't been put into the Wells Fargo system yet, so no money could come out of it and the funds wouldn't be available until the next day. Wells Fargo tried to call anyone at the Corporate Office, but it being the Friday before a Monday holiday, no one was there. Wry humor! If I had been an ex-employee who really NEEDED the money, I would've been in a WORLD of HURT!!!

    There will be more to come about my  job at Goodwill, the ups, downs, laughter and tears (MUCH more laughter than tears, I can tell you!), but that'll be in other posts.